Connivin' about Ivan and other short stories.

Yeesh. Somebody stop me before I make another post with another horrible title.

Anyway, I've been trying to flesh out my freak characters this week, just so I have a more 3-dimensional. I think a lot about my characters. I try to form them as close to real people as I can. What's the point of having an entirely 2-D cartoon, yanno?
This week I was thinking about Ivan. You know, the bug guy no-one knows about. One of the main aspects of his character is that he's the biggest bastard ever. He cannot speak a sentence without using an expletive. But that's part of his character, it's as much a protection from the big world that never gave him a chance as his disguise is. He's probably a very scared individual, for how much of a jackass he is. Here's some sketches.


I need to practice him, really, my drawing skills of him are HORRIBLE. It's sort of a shame I have to hide his cool design all the time. Especially his wings. i was drawing this, and I was imagining all the things I could do with his cool wings. I'll probably save it for a fight scene or some jazz.

I also doodled this Vinnie. Face it. if any of you were faced with your choice of mate from the freaks, you'd all choose this black Adonis. I fucking would. The tattoo's possibly from prison. I'll work on developing Vinnie this week, and then I'll post my findings. I want to do out a proper version of this doodle, I'll totally look up some anatomy for it though. Eugh, my drawings suck. And yes, Paco is totally gay. I'll explain that when I get around to him too.

In other news, I had my first paid art job today. My parents laughably called it a commission. I was doing face-painting at this promotion at a butcher's. But it was fine, if tiring. 4 HOURS OF SITTING IN A CHAIR PAINTING KIDS JUST DRAAAAAAAAGS BY. I got 50 euro for my troubles though, so I guess it's okay. Some kid wanted, like, the Aresenal crest though It was a real "YOU STUPID KID" moment. I did anyway though. It was horrible.

Aaaaaand my head hurts, so good night.

Edit: Ooooooooh shit. I'm listening to "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails, and it's totally reminding me of Vinnie. Here's an example of the lyrics I wanna to fuck you like an animal/I want to feel you from the inside/I wanna fuck you like an animal/mywhole existance is flawed/you bring me CLOSER TO GOD It's actualy a pretty fucking sexy song, but....JEEZ. It's amusing though. I'm getting a picture out of this.

Sketches, schmetches.

Ignore that title. I've ben sketching a little bit in the last few days. Nothing relevant to anything, actually, but I dunno. Maybe you'd wanna see 'em.


First up, just a doodle of a rudeboy. Funnily enough, my Specials buzz of the last few days has started to wear down. I've been listening to some trance instead, which is a horrific crime and a sin against my nature and blah blah blah. I was going to draw another rudy next to this fella, one a little more 2nd wave (t-shirt and tie combo, yo) but never got around to it. WEEP.






I've been looking up the Aztecs a lot recently, this coloured sketch should let you know who influenced me into doing so (AND GEE I WONDER HOW). So yeah. Coloured doodle of Xilxa. She's actually a very pretty character to draw, too bad I did her no justice.



And thus, while reasearching Aztecs I came across their ever so wonderful mythology and religion. I was then spurred to draw Coaltlicue, the cuddliest one of them all. This sketch isn't any good though. I'll be trying again from scratch, maybe in a little bit of more of a "me" style. I JUST WANT TO MAKE YOU MEXICANS HAPPY.

AND THEN, I started looking up the Celts too, and now when I'm done that, I wish to work on Cernunnos, the Lord of the Stags. He had antlers, you expect me to not draw him?

After all that claptrap, I'm thinking I want to enter the Schizophrenia contest on dA too. This'd be a grand opportunity for me to expand with the concepts of Rowan's schizophrenia I've been toying with lately. The auditory hallucination aspect of the disorder fits in more with how he's "communicating" with the dead, as opposed to say, a personality disorder, like DID (which schizophrenia is often mistaken for, which has nothnig to do with multiple personailities). It'd also give me a chance to explore his disorder in a negative way, make it an actual blight on his life. I know it's site-wide, and I don't have much of a chance to win or anything, but I still think it'd be interesting. I'll be messing with outlines on PS, so if they get donw, I can post them.
I'll be finishing up Erica's contest entry this week. too. YOU HAVE THE PATIENCE OF A SAINT. I'M SO SORRY.

On a final note, I had a dream about Flanders having sex last night. It was as horrible as it sounds.

Feeling Poetic.

Which is weird, because normally I find poetry pretentious or over-rated. I normally prefer prose, at any rate. But my interest in writing was peaked this week with a lot of emotion, so let's see if I'm any good at this.
Note, I AM embarrassed to be posting poetry, for several reasons, so give me an opinion, but don't be too harsh, yes? That's a good dear.

"Take heart, you youth"
We who have been entwined by the veins,
Or who take life by the hand and
Lead it down the path
Which less chose.
"Why I think we're the first to be here"
Should be what we say, underneath
Boughs of sweeping gold.

For I have grown sore of the Emerald,
Dim and dull in the light.
And the Saints and Scholars could never
Catch my soul in their hands,
So grey and unlike His.

The will sits with me but the way is yet
Far, far removed,
Probably on the plane we never got,
The Earth as a mile would be all we had,
And for all the grief,
I'd want you to think;
A minor knows,
The smallest gem is worth the means.

Sweet Maloney, I feel foolish. It's either going to be too ambiguous to enjoy or be far more transparent then what I wanted.
Oh well.

-EDEET- Forgot to mention, I've been concerned with my comics lately, most specifically Corpus. Hopefully with all my thinking and conceptualising I'll get good art done, pages too. Who knew thinking could be so beneficial?